ECP, Mr. Paracha and me

So here comes the historical moment in the lives of desperate Pakistanis after decades of dictatorial epoch ,they tell us! we are blessed to witness the first ever "Five-Years UN-INTERRUPTED term" of a democratic government, they insist. Something to boast about in front of your grandchildren one day, they exaggerate! and so goes on the rant of our politicians-cum-actors-cum-idiots-cum-retards-cum-clumsy clowns!

Anyway, this post is not going to be wasted mourning the last five years in vain, lets talk about something else instead, something more refreshing if I could give you a hint here *chuckles* YES!! Lets talk about the most talked about topic these days yet again, I will be more then excited to break the story to you if luckily any one of my readers refrains from watching news, reading paper and talking about the current national scenario under the strict instructions of their Doctor, I mean there is this priceless feeling of being The First One to break news, right? But then it has its own side-effects, I mean my lappy is not charged enough to go this far to allow me to quote the details here and we have no power for the last 3 hours now * Did I just hear "Raja BC" here?* Oh no, I promised myself not to rant the bloody old rants again. We have had enough already, ENOUGH! Lets move on, shall we?

So yes guys I believe you must have heard it in bits up til now THAT;

*There are 32 Paraa's In Quran.
*There are 6 pillers of Islam.
*There is a Sajda in Nama e Janazza too (makes you wonder if this guy ever attended any Janaza at all in his life)
*Prayer of Qanoot is read in Fajar.
*Sorah a Ikhlas in place of Drood -e Inraheemi.

The list is too long here but then I don't want to trouble my Non-Pakistani readers here, Oh and before Mr. Paracha Labels me with a "Jahadi" and start a crusade war against me on Twitter, let me have my say first. But before I do that, let me introduce you to Mr. Paracha here. Mr. P and his likewise are "The Most Unhappy" people on the land of pure, this is being the most precised description I could come up with. They are the so-called Ultimate Critics , do and will criticise whatsoever comes their way.You are doomed and doomed pretty much bad if you follow them to have a clear opinion because all they leave you with is utter confusion and not to mention a headache too.

Mushuruff comes in or goes out, Afridi performs well or sucks at batting, CJ delays or takes Suo-moto notice of Shahzeb Murder case, Insar Abbasi does or does not come up with his investigatve-cum-personal opinion in Capital Talk, Sana Bucha does or does not change her hair-style, Najam Sethi does or does not mention his Chirya, it rains or it does not rain in Tahir Qadri's dhurna, We trade with U.S or with China or with India, No Independent Election Commission or a comparatively better Election Commission. (so on and on and on...)

Mr.Paracha & Company are always always unhappy and annoyed, up there ranting in their "as ever" mood.
For the name of Lord, WHAT ON THE EARTH IS WRONG WITH YOU GUYS?! May be it was not an ideal post to write about you Mr. Paracha but then I wanted to ask you this since long now. Yes its a bit too much asking all those questions to Election Candidates and lets not talk about "The Ideology of Pakistan" debate but whatever I mentioned above are not the basics? the very very basics?  are not the number of candidates who could not tell on Kulmaa'z from Jamaat e Islaami? Are they not the same people who tell you to cover your head, offer your prayers, and not mas****ate? are they not the same people who will sit in Parliment and legislate ? where do they stand? Why this fuss over asking the candidates the very basic questions? Forget about the 'a bit too much" type of questions here, but seriously whats wrong if you ask them about the basics? Do I not have this right being a citizen of this state to have this desire about  knowing more about the people I am going to select and send to sit in the Parliment representing me!? Oh yes I do have this right Mr. P

I have every right under the constitution of Pakistan to ask for whatever I deem right to the candidate that is going to represent me via my vote in the National Assembly of Paksitan. You have any problem with that? Yes the way could be wrong, but not the questions, criticise in good spirit just once, if you could. I wish I could request ECP to include you & your League in their "How to Do it right" committee so that we may know what solution do you have. Though I doubt if you have any solution for any of the problems you keep on blustering about. *No Offence intended*

Yes this is big, the first successful five years terms of a democratic governement in ^60 years, and so is everything else, the first (comparatively) independent Election Commission, the first ever THIRD PARTY factor in pakistani politics, and the first ever attempt of ECP to secrutinize the candidate. This might not be the best strategy but at least there is an effort. Will you bother notice that already? All the other nations have learned via Trial & Error method, but it their same trying trying again until they have the right way of doing things that served them well. Why cant it be the same for us?

So Dear Mr. Paracha & Company , spare the basics and talk about fake degrees and fake tax-records and fake assets reports, yes you guys are more educated under every definition of education for us poor ignorant ordinary Pakistanis which gives you every right to be tagged as "Liberals" but do no kindly forget that no matter how vaguely we, the common ones, appear over the surface, that does not snatch our right to tell you how do we feel about it. You want to help? Please enlighten the ones in the present system over their strategy and for once at least, stop criticizing for good. Talk about a better Scrutinizing system than not having a system at all, will you? 

Oh Yes I Missed You Like Hell

  Hello! *Smiles* Its been ages I posted last,I missed this place like hell, I have been busy with life,rather stuck would be a better word here.I still am stuck but then I thought To Hell With Everything! I need my space back,So here i am guys, back with a splash!

I don't know how many of you know this exactly but this year, it is exceptionally, unbelievably and madly Cold in Lahore.I mean its simply too much and then for somebody like me (and by that i mean somebody too vulnerable for cold) this is too big.Actually its not cold that is an issue alone, its the absence of all the must ingredients that is troubling us.Now I don't plan to make this post a grumpy one with all this whining about Gas, Load shedding , Shitty Politics, Clumsy media and what not! No I don't intend that.Lets talk about something worth talking about as the photo above suggests.

It has been a beautiful day indeed, it did not seem this way when I woke up this morning,Oh and speaking of that here, it did not seem that way in the first part of the day.I woke up to a Load-Shaded Morning..Umm yeah I  invented this term, Then there was no hot water,Gas Load shedding too, and then NO WATER at all! All annoyed, I thought to give my Aunt in the Neighbourhood a call to ask if I could take a shower at her place since it was Friday too, While I was trying to get into my room, the handle looked jam and the door stuck, that will be a lie if I say, I  was patient with it,Iwas annoyed,remember? while "Try Try Again My Kola-Puri" in my head, Ipushed it and pulled it all at the same time and the next thing I know, I was standing there with the sophisticated golden handle in my hand while the door still closed right on my face,Yes the handle came off just like that,OK! I made it come off just like that.Whatever.

You can imagine the rest, there I was, just woke up, without attending to the basic needs of the morning even, all starving, with no water, no light, no gas and no phone, a door handle instead was all I got. I should be in a very nasty mood but to my great surprise, after all that sorted out, I was sitting on Terrace enjoying the So Not Enjoyable Fog, I had this moment with myself, I had a quick flashback of my life all these months and I asked myself if something was missing,You know the answer? It was simple, everything was there, the people, the commitments, the liabilities, the rights, the painfully  consistent routine of my life, everything was there except me.I was missing in the picture.I tried to look so hard but all I could see were others.It had been all about others in the previous some months and that too The Unhappy Others. I wonder why do we end up with thankless, ruthless, merciless faces around us but then may be that's what we are for others in the same way.Its a selfish little world after all.

I missed my space, like every one of you out there, I value this, cherish this, I have been away but never did I forget this.I have missed my connection with everyone of you our there, You guys are part of my space,you guys know a lot more about me then the real people around me in my real world, I don't have to act strong here, I can just be myself, whoever i am.I need my space back,I need to get back with you guys.I hope you still remember me...so  Can I join you again? Tell me yes so that I could say its a beautiful beautiful day today.

Oh and a very very Happy New Year to everybody out there...

 

Break Break

Hello Everybody, just dropped here to tell you that I am going to get busy in my upcoming examinations and I will be off this page for a couple of days now.yeah I know I was being waited here desperately but sorry guys I was too busy for that..Those who took the pain to respond to my second last post with such a ZEAL are thanked from the bottom of my heart (Nopes! em not being Sarcastic! you are getting Skeptic :p) I will get back to you guys soon so yeah in the mean while what you can do is forget the silly stuff and wish me Luck for my exams..I will be back soon inshaALLAH..Take care every one..

Back to Life Again

So the best part of having mood swings is when you finally get over the urge of giving up and when you find yourself fighting back,something that is a must to move on! But I still believe that loosing heart or feeling like giving up is not something to be ashamed of, this in only human..What I wrote in my previous piece was based on the same thought, it, by no means, was intended to spread negative vibes, not at all. All I wanted to share with you guys here was this natural instinct of getting angry over what you can't control about your life, we are only human after all, Like I said earlier, what should be seen or focused is not the point when you get tired of everything, but its the point when you start having your energies back, when you realize that this is just part of life, and that "Bad Phases" pass too, just like the Good Phases,(yeah yeah..I am back to my Normal Side!;p) nothing here is for always but your inner peace,or if you have something to hold on to..something beautiful and sacred..(read LOVE here for instance) If you are happy and content with your life, nothing matters.No problem, no issue can be lethal enough unless and until you don't want to fight back or you have made up your mind to give up no matter what!


What I can't understand is why it becomes so difficult for us to admit that we can be weak too.Why its hard to digest that a normal person can actually get tired of living at some point.People just cannot stop lecturing you about How Should You Live You Life, irrespective of the fact that they cannot and they don't want to PUT THEIR SELF IN YOUR SHOES..trust me no one can do that, Even you can't do that for anyone in this entire world.So When you don't actually want to know that what does it feel to be that one PARTICULAR PERSON or leading their life, facing their issues, then WHAT gives you the right to tell them that THEY CANT LOSE HOPE?! 


What my point here is just be kind with people when you can see that they are losing it, just don't be hard on them for not pretending that they are brave! do not blame them for being human, for being vulnerable, we all are weak, we all are this unguarded.People whizz through the hard phases anyways, what they wont forget is how they were treated then.So if you have somebody around you that you feel or sense that , is going through something   
hard, just don't be hard on them, stay there with them until they get their courage back, make them feel important, valued, and loved.Just don't be brutal with them with your so called "I can Judge You for I am braver then you" sh*t.


Khair, I did not mean to offend anyone while writing that piece, I received bunch of emails too, complaining about some of the context in that post. Well  
I did not mean to write something with a negative message. What you guys need to remember is that this is my personal space and I have every right to write about what I feel like sharing with my readers.,I cannot skip something just because it will make me look weak in front of my readers or friends .All I want to be honest with you guys, This page here is my personal journal and I want to be honest and straight-forward while recording the details here.Hope you guys will understand that.


Plus Guys, wish me Luck and Do pray for me as I have some exam to take care of in the next couple of days.

Suicidal Tendencies mean ITS MY LIFE AND LET ME LIVE IT

Its weird how sometimes your own life seems to be so taken by others, so not yours,,,Don't get me wrong here...don't judge me just because I have names this post as Suicidal Tendencies..em okay..just fine..couldn't be better...Its just em down...Yeah I know people usually don't expect me to say this..and whenever I try to tell them that em ONLY HUMAN..they just don't get it! WHY PEOPLE?! just because I sound and appear so cheerful and lively and energetic doesn't mean I cant get enough with life!


Just because I have always been a positive person does not mean that I cant get tired of all the trash Life throws at me...Just because I have never appeared weak does not mean that I will always be strong..em only human and i wonder why cant people take this!


I'm experiencing the strangest of mood swings ever..and em not a coward that i will just not admit it outta feat that what people will think of me..or how they will judge me,,so yeah em having these suicidal tendencies....its not slitting the wrist sh*t that em talking about here...these are very innocent, harmless cute little tendencies..when I wish to sleep for hours and hours and then never get up..or when i just want to PLAY DEAD...or when I just don't feel like taking anything that life gives me..and i just feel like giving up..giving up on everything and everyone..


Well I don't know how many of you exactly have experienced this..though I can bet that there comes this point in almost everybody' life when you just don't feel like fighting back...when it gets so messed up that you just want to sit back and see yourself drowning...


What makes it worst is how people around you take this! All they try to do is to MOTIVATE you and LECTURE you and CONVINCE you that how beautiful life is and that you are being a Loser and Blah Blah..oh and yeah when they tell you that how you will be punished if you take your own life..I mean yeah I totally understand the philosophy that works behind these kind of MOTIVATIONAL SPEECHES..been there done that! and I never thought how the person on the other end must be feeling when we tell him/her that "Look Dude! you cant just take your own life..or you will be thrown into that pit full of fire"..with an Apology to my Non-Urdu Speaking Readers...


"Tundoor main ulta latka dein gein Allah Miyan...or 10 number kay chitter sy phenti alag purni hai..Soch lo Baita!"


These words were said to me by one of my THE MOST SENTIMENTAL friend and the ironic part is that I was the one who used them once on her! 
Khair so yeah My point of writing this was the fact that how we are so suppressed under the social pressure that we cant live our damn life the way we want to...We just cant do that..our society is and please don't mind my French here is a pretty much f**ked up society..


Where the social pressure ends , begins the RELIGIOUS one! Yeah the damn self-proclaimed Molanaz and Mullaz..Dare to ask them one logical question and there you go! Out of the circle ...with a tag of SKEPTIC and KAFFIR and GUSTAKH! r


To everyone out there who thinks the same or who has given this speech to any one or is planning to SAVE somebody's life..


"Trust me People, telling somebody with this freaky desire of killing his/her self that they cant do it coz they dont have any right to take their life DOES NOT HELP! It freaks them out a bit more! yeah..it messes things up so next time ,,skip the speech part and talk to them about their Favourite Movie..It will help!"


To cut the crap, the point is that EM OK people! Thank you so much for your concerns..em so indebted to you..I cant return that back..Thank you so much to every single one of you who sent me the mails and kept asking me if I was ok...


I am OK buddies..and Don't worry em not gonna shoot myself or rat-poison myself..I have this Instinctive talent for fighting back and I will survive this phase..So Just because em reading HOW TO COMMIT SUICIDE THE EASY WAY doesn't mean em actually gonna do it..and it also does not mean that em giving up on life..it just means that LET ME BREATHE and give me some space...this is my life and let me decide what i want to do with it..just don't give me your social pressure tantrums and tell me how em supposed to live my damn life..I can take care of that...


I hopefully am back here so I will read all your pending posts..I know I have missed a lot..But I will manage with my reading list...so yeah people hope to see you around...Love you All...God Bless you and I hope you never get these Tendencies! :p

Getting Nostalgic

This Post wont take much of your time so do read it full..I was doing watching this sitcom on TV that was based on the idea of Hostel Life and how things are back In University Life.That brought out some really funny memories,one of them so strong that I had to get here to write that.

That was my first year of LLB In Punjab University,Lahore.We had just arrived in Hostels and after those hectic initial days of how you get to know people there,try to talk to them,choose your friends,go to the class for the first time,make a list of books and notes and then go to markets.New Place,new rules,new everything and there I found myself standing in between all this, A girl from far off Area,A girl who dint know anything about big places,Who could not speak English,Who did not know how to put Lipstick on.Who did not even do her Eye-brows and whose dressing sense was enough to tell where she came from.

I still remember the first day in Hostel.My father and Mother drove me to Lahore all the way from The Lower Punjab.That was some 12 hours Driving.I had fallen seriously sick a few days back and I still was not feeling well.My parents were worried like hell about me.My Father did the Documentation and all and they stayed with me all day long.Then the moment came when they had to leave.I can still remember the moment and it send a shiver down my spines every time.My throat was blocked,I could hardly speak.I stood there with tears in my eyes watching my parents going away,Then i looked around and I felt like running behind them.Faces and Faces every where and not  a single face that was familiar to me.I sat in a corner,kept sitting there unless somebody came and asked me to go for my dinner.I can never forget the feeling,I wanted to talk to the people around me and i was too scared to do that  and the worst part was when Any of them tried to talk to me, I couldn't speak back.I had a Blocked throat remember! 

Khair That time passed soon,I made some great friends.College was started.It was Ramadan just after a week that we started going to College and it felt horrible.No Mom-Made sehri and No Yummy Atari.That Ramadan had no taste.No time for Ibadit.We hardly managed our Prayers and felt so bad about it.

So it was Friday that day,We got back from College as tired as we used to be everyday and were about to crash on our beds when somebody knocked on our doors.it was some senior girl from the other wing and she told us that they had arranged Salwat ul Tasbeeh (A special kind of prayers that is offered in general too but In Particular in Ramadan) Now all my Room-Mates had crashed already and refused to go while I,still standing in the door, told her I will come.Now it was not a good idea I knew even then.As I was tired and sleepy but then I thought I will be fine when I will wash my face off.

I went downstairs in the prayer room and after the Zuhar Prayers,Salwat ul Tasbeeh was started.The prayer room was full.I was focusing on the prayer and I thought I did well until something happened.In salwat ul tasbeeh you stand and you bent and you go in Sajdah for long periods of time then usual..what I remember was that I went for first sajdah just fine but it was second Sajdah that changed my whole prayers.I put my head in Sajdah,was saying my prayers and then all of a sudden everything went blank.I have no idea for how long that blankness Prevailed,all  I know is I just opened my eyes and I was in Sajdah..I tried to think where I was and then I tried to see my surrounding without changing my position and I found myself alone there..I mean no one was there..Then I focused hard and I saw people standing.and i was like SHOOT ME!! .ummm yes Ladies and gentlemen, I had Dozed off right in middle of those Prayers and God knows for how long! the rest of the prayer room was standing in Qiyyam while I was the only one In sajdah! I stayed there for like a bit while thinking WHAT TO DO..WHAT TO DO..WHAT TO DO..!Then I told meself..Bhag Lay baita nai tou bohat buri honi hai!;p I stood up slowly and walked out of the room before the crowd is done with their prayers and want to know who that Sleeping Girl was! 

I got back in room,landed on my bed,slept for like 3 hours.We all woke up in the evening and I just wanted to forget the incident,had no plans to tell that to anyone.But Guess what ! My roomies heard somebody in the mess talking about HOW A GIRL DOZED OFF IN SAJADAH IN PRAYER ROOM today and they came to me laughing their heads off and said WE KNOW IT WAS YOU! Yeah LOL..FRIENDS!!! 

Good Old days..I miss them..I miss everything about those days and I have got lot of crazy stuff from those days that I would love to write here.I will do that under The Title of "Getting Nostalgic" from now on.Don't Miss any of my post under this Title Peoples or My University Tales will haunt you where ever you go!

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FTW! Jago Pakistan !!

Oh So its Marvi Memon in the news now and for all the right reasons If you ask me.The tiring sessions of thinking and thinking and thinking came to a logical end at last,Well I am not one of those fanatic fans of P.T.I who are pissed off so badly that they started their "Hatred Campaign" against The Poor Lady as soon as she showed up on National TV with none other then The Senior Sharif who clearly looked Over-Joyed to have the Lady at his side.The Sight was thrilling By the way, Mr.Sharif explaining his ROMANCE  for the dictatorship and the reasons why the Chaudharys owe an apology to the nation in order to get back to where they once belonged,The Raiwand Palace Of course! That will be a total injustice to the Chaudhary Sahib If we forget to mention his CUTE reply to Mr.Sharif over this.That was smart, cool and right on time! 


Not to mention how interesting it was to see Marvi Memon sitting all sheepishly and Tamely while Mr.Sharif was criticizing The Chaudharys and Gen Mushi from the core of his heart,HER MENTORS! What will become of us seriously,does it not bother you to see where is this all going! This madness and silliness in the name of Politics and Revolution.Our Politicians truly are AMNESTY PRONE when it comes to their excellent careers in front of their followers.Every mistake can be overlooked,forgiven and ignored,They ask for the second chance,talk about their regrets for making the wrong decisions in the past,for disappointing people,for deceiving them,for stabbing them in the back and never do they get disappointed and A SECOND CHANCE..a  chance is always what they get.Some in the name of their Glorious Past,others in the name of Revolution.


Oh and Not to mention How Talks of Revolution have been subsided since this Lovely 20'th Amendment has been passed.A punch in the belly I guess..Quite hard, hard enough to make us all quiet for a while.It reminds me how weeks before The Mentioned Lady was heard talking her heart out about how she hated the Idea of Revolution by using the same old cards and all.I wonder if the sudden shift of principle has anything to do with the Lost possibility of a Change.Or May be Miss memon always had this PLAN B with her and I hope she soon will announce that how her NEW INSPIRATION IN THE BUSINESS is going to make things work for her ONCE DESIRED REVOLUTION! and yes  If There is no change,Why not work for the same old people,at least you got to think for your future too..right!


BTW I am not here to write against this young Lady,I have nothing against her.I know she is talented and all and she is respected for a lot of reasons.But you see she is considered to be a young politician and she loves to be tagged as One From Youth! So its logical if you get this question in mind as I do this moment,what will become of us! Will we be doomed forever or there is an end for this.Frankly telling you people my hopes have gone stupefied if not dead! The Recent Elections for those reserved seats have shacked the hopefuls out there.I swear if it were some other country,some other nation, some other rulers with the same set of circumstances like ours (Read every Crises here) The people would have come to the roads,from their homes to THEIR homes,would have dragged them by necks and had them hanged in Public.


The Ruling Elite surely has lot to thank for,They should be thankful to God that they are no where else but in Pakistan.Everything is fine here,No harm for the trouble-makers,not yet.


We are doomed,with the same issues over and over again and with the same Poker Faces,and tell you what we deserve this,we deserve every bit of it.We are a morally dead Nation and we are Numb,too numb to feel anything..Our time is not here yet I guess..Lets enjoy ourselves with their S*it Talk in the mean while..Its Pakistan Anyways..yahan sub chalta hai!